30 January, 2009

x_x


I have just not been in the mood to blog recently.
I haven't exactly been feeling "happy" and there's nothing exciting happening.
To top that, no one seems to be in the mood to update their blogs.
I am out of material to read on the internet.
I like reading blog posts, you know?

Life is pretty much crap right now.
I just don't feel like writing :/
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28 January, 2009

I want


• a two bedroom apartment, spacious & not too much furniture, with a balcony;
• a room-mate that I live there with, love to hang with and never get sick of;
• three dogs - a German shepherd, a spaniel and a Lhasa apso that I will take for long walks in the evenings;
• a car that's convenient, I won't fuss too much about the way it looks;
• a good number of places to eat within five kilometres (especially a good bar/pub!);
• a job that satisfies my creative impulses.

I have a long way to go but I can't WAIT =)
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26 January, 2009

If I smoke, it's my business.


Click here for my CJ article about smoking :)
Tell me what you think.
& rate it if you have an account on CJ.
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22 January, 2009

Relieved


07:12 AM.
I feel so fresh.
Even though yesterday was quite hectic.
A nice hot shower + a cup of ill-tasting lemon juice solves everything :D

I think I forgot to mention yesterday,
I got my first paycheck :)!
Did I mention it?
Iunno, I am too lazy to check :P

Hopefully everyone is going to show up at college today.
Seven of us barely come to college all at once :x
But I like how that doesn't change anything.
We still like each other plenty.. I think :P

Now that I have some dough,
I need to go shop!!!!!!!
Not the girly "omg SALE!!" shopping.
Just a few things that I have wanted for a while now.

Hmm, I have another 10 minutes before I leave.
So I am going to have to end this post now :/
Biii ♥
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21 January, 2009

Argh!!!!!!!


Holy cow!
I have such a horrible headache!
It's fucking killing me.

Today was hectic o_o'
Firstly, I hadn't planned on going to college but I did..
I am not really sure why :/

College finished at 12.00
& we had this Edit Meet @ 2.30
What timing, eh?
Anyway, after the meeting and all the painful commuting.
I got home at 6.00!
Yeah, you heard that right.

& now I am at a place where I think hitting my head with a hammer will make the pain go away.
Yes, I have totally completely lost it.
GAH! I am done for now.
I have been attending college like EVERYDAY.
& it sucks that I can't skip college tomorrow.
:'(

Anyway, this is me leaving.
Over & out!
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Strike One.


He was right.
He was absolutely right about 18 months ago.
He had me figured out, didn't he?

I put people I like on a pedestal.
I end up believing they're perfect.
I am blindsided so easily.
I can't see the obvious flaws in their person.

Didn't I tell you I was a romantic? :)
I like to think I am in this fairytale where everything is going to fall into place.
Note to self: Don't read any fairytale to your kids :D

It doesn't hurt.
You know, like it used to.
Like it's supposed to.
It does feel odd though.
It's frustrating.
The frustration is only directly proportional to the amount of thought I put into to it though.

I am not afraid to say it.
The more I think about it,
The more I am likely to conclude that I have nothing to look forward to.
Obviously, blindsided.

Why would I put a person on a pedestal?
Without assessing his/her worth..
I need to pay more attention.
I need to take my time.
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20 January, 2009

Untitled


I am still on it.
I can't believe I am.
But that's just how it is.

I need to fit it in more strictly.
& make sure I don't betray it.
Then I can start with other things.
Things that would help, you know?

I am afraid to measure in exact terms.
It might screw my balance,
& make myself give up.

I hope we can sail into the sunset, you & I.
Just like ol' times.
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18 January, 2009

It's like candy.


Whoever said this is easy, lied.
I am struggling with this regime.
It's like I'd snap any minute now.
Give in & fall back into that vicious cycle.

At least I have made it to day #7 this time.
Slight results have started to show.
I feel more comfortable.

I am still afraid though,
I might mess this up any minute now.
I hate it when I don't believe in myself.

Of course the only thing that's keeping me going,
Is the addition to self - confidence.
I need to feel complete.
I hate to let myself down.

There's something I want to prove to myself,
I am programming my mind
To let me have what's right and not what 'feels' right.

I am not even halfway.. far from it.
But I have a feeling this is the last time I will ever try.
That being the only reason this matters so much more than the last few times.
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15 January, 2009

#201


Wow. I almost kept my promise.
I have attended three out of three days of college this week.
I am kind of relieved, even though waking up is still kind of a pain.
I used to like it, I don't know what happened to that :P

I have nothing to really blog about.
I am just doing it for the sake of it.
I don't like long gaps between my blog posts.

I was talking to B about relationships today.
& about my past experiences, mistakes and what not.
She was talking about hers.
& the kind of trouble one faces with a relationship.

You know, I am kind of glad I don't have to deal with it all.
Of course, there's a part of you that feels out of place when your girlfriends are raving about their boys.
But those "episodes" are largely outnumbered by the ones that involve fighting, arguing, crying in the middle of the road, getting out with friends when you fought with your boyfriend and no matter how hard you try you can't fully enjoy yourself.
I don't miss that.
I haven't for all these months.. years.

Don't get me wrong though.
I am a sucker for love.
Even though I don't look like the type.
What I refuse to make do with is the 'instant love'
.. you know, like those instant soups you get in a sachet.
The soup isn't even half as good as real soup but you make do..
I hate that.
It's an awful thing to do to yourself.

I can't need love, I have to want it.
It's got to be a choice.
& I'd much rather wait to make that choice,
Than grab the next thing that happens to cross my path.

Of course I miss the feeling at times.
But there's so much more to do.
It's so easy to forget to "miss" ..
& more often than not, I am glad that I do.
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13 January, 2009

Another day, another ramble.


It's been a while, eh?
I have been watching like a million movies everyday!
& I think I am a movie addict of some sort now :P

I went to college yesterday & the first lecture was canceled!
What a pain ! D:
But I did still attend lecture #2
Because I didn't want to let the effort of waking up @ 06.00 AM be a total waste.

Pol. Science lectures have to started to bore me.
She isn't letting us do anything new or interesting.
The same debate session every time is getting a tad arid.
Ok, maybe not a tad.. very arid.
Especially because she doesn't let it be an open debate
& likes to end the class pronouncing a verdict which has to be swallowed without questions.
I don't get the point.. sigh.

Anyway, I am trying to get the whole 'food' thing back on track.
It's been one day,
& hopefully it's the last time I hit the 'restart' button.

Oh! .. new episode of How I Met Your Mother came out today =)
(technically yesterday, but it's still yesterday in the U.S. .. o_o)
So yeah, I can't wait to watch it :P

Andddd! Maybe I will go the gym today.
Or do something, anything.. cos I am having my 'bored' phases.
I am in dire need of a good book to read.
Someone please find me one?
If I wasn't completely broke I'd have bought some. Sigh.

The last book I read was Atlas Shrugged.
The last half-book I read was Twilight.
No, don't even get me started on how big a disappointment that book was.
What? You want me to rant some more? :P
OK then.

start rant.
It's the last time I will ever read a book because everyone is going gaga over it. Twilight is like an author trying to be so many different books all at once. The fact that people dare to compare it to Harry Potter is absolutely ludicrous. I think the 'plot' is a partially-unique idea, only executed in such a poor manner. Bella (protagonist) is going to start to get on your nerves after you've read three chapters. She's like one of those thirteen years old school girls who wouldn't stop yapping about her crush.

Dear Diary, Edward was wearing blah blah, he said blah blah, he looked blah blah, he did blah blah. BLAH! I kept reading however, hoping to reason that this would get interesting & make the torture worth it. But it doesn't, trust me on that. The moive (sigh!) is worse. I think it was made on like a shoestring budget or something. The guy who plays Edward is such a put off & nothing like the way he's described in the book. He's far from perfect & heck, he can't act to save his life. The girl who plays Bella isn't as annoying as Bella in the book, she's prettier too and she manages to act. Yeah, so either stay away from this movie/book or don't ever talk to me about it :D
/end rant.

Now that that is over with.
I just read Stephie's new post & I wondered what post number this was.
And as it turns out this is #200!
Co-incidence much?
Don't worry, I am not going to get teary-eyed and make a speech or anything :P
Just thought I'd mention it.

This post was epic!
I didn't know I was going to talk so much :P
& now, I am done.
G'bye (:



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10 January, 2009

Girl, Interrupted


Helluuuuuu! :*
I am feeling so much better today :)
Although a tad guilty of skipping college,
But I am going to be regular from Monday, I promise!

I watched Girl, Interrupted yesterday. The first time I watched this movie was about two years back. I remembered very little of it. You ought to watch it if you enjoy movies that make you think. The fact that it's based on a true story and because it's so real - it made me think of Boys Don't Cry, even though the stories have nothing in common.

If you only like 'fun' movies though, this one's not for you. You're probably going to complain about the pace then. I didn't find it slow at all though :P Aah, I am such a dork at times :s

Angelina is bloody amazing (as expected)! I mean she didn't win an Oscar for nothing. She's 100% convincing. She does over-shadow Winona Ryder who is pretty good too. Apart from being one of the most gorgeous looking girls in Hollywood, Winona's a decent actress as well.
I was as surprised as you are :)

So yeah, I need to head out & run a few errands. I might blog again but then again, maybe I won't xD Byeee!
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Ka-blah!


Urgh!
My eyes hurt, my back aches and my head is spinning.
I think it's time for my monthly sick-week.!
D:

Le-sigh.
I have been bunking college way too much.
I need to get my act together.
Next week, I promise. (I think!)

I need my bed, like right now.
So yeah, bye ♥.
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07 January, 2009

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So turns out that I am a balding guy with spikes & Chikni has fat arms :P
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04 January, 2009

09.00 AM - I'm Not OK edition.


It'll be fine.
You'll be OK.
Just a minor setback, & that's all there's to it.
That happens to every plan, right?
At least you made it to a week this time.
So how about we forget the last two days & move on?
You'll be okay (I promise).

As for them..
Try and not take it out on them.
Let them be, be passive.
It's not their fault, hold back. Please.
& calm down.
You'll be fine.
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01 January, 2009

90210



Star World has been advertising this show like crazy over the last few weeks and since I had nothing better to do I thought I'd give it a try. My usual weekly dose of my favourite shows is currently on "pause" mode but the seasons for GG, DH & HIMYM resume this week or the next so that's great :)

Why do I always drift away from the point?

Right. 90210. It's another teen drama series. Yes, it's just that and nothing else. I mean, it doesn't stand out. It looks like bits stolen from The OC, Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill and mixed up to make a show thinking that no one would notice. !sigh. Do they really think the audience is as stupid to miss the glaringly evident similarities?


Let's look at this:-


Annie Wilson (Shenae Grimes) is such a poor copy of Serena Van De Woodsen (Blake Lively). I mean, not only the way they look but several aspects of their body language are similar too. Then there's Ty Collins (Adam Gregory) trying to do a Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford). It's pathetic, really.

If you're a Gossip Girl fan, you don't want to watch this (unless you're bored of course!) The only thing good about this show is the character of Adrianna Tate-Duncan (Jessica Lowndes) She's a junkie + struggling actress w/ a stage mom who can't afford the mortgage in Beverly Hills. She's pretty hot too ♥.

Say, why do all blondes have to lead teen dramas? :s

I have watched only two episodes but there isn't enough to keep me hooked. Teen drama needs something that hasn't been done before, if they keep churning out cheaper copies by the year I might have to give up television altogether.

All in all, here's another one that bites the dust :(
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