Dear Inee.

It was blasphemy, right from the start.
I knew that before I woke up with that dream.
But I didn't know how hard the following year was about to be.

It made me sick.
&& it felt like guilt. It wasn't.
Irrespective of much I'd like to convince myself.
It wasn't guilt.
I wasn't sorry for not being able to take you off my mind.

I hate to admit this
But if I don't, I will probably never get over this.
I knew it was doomed, I still hoped it wasn't.
I started to believe that it wasn't ordinary.
How else could you have made me so happy?
I wondered if you'd change your mind.

Standing on the railway track. Blindfolded.
That train will still hit you.
Doesn't matter whether you see it or ignore it.

Each day. It was beautiful.
Ludicrous at the same time.
I was blatantly kidding myself.

And reality is a bitch.
When it hit me, it hit me hard.
It wasn't fun and games any more.
No mindless flirting with that thin line between love and friendship.
&& what about 'him'?

'He' was always our primary concern.
'He' was not to be hurt.
'He' was to be protected
When at the end of it all..
'He' is the one who got away with everything.

But I still don't regret it.
I still won't take it back.
I won't tell you that I wasn't in my senses.
Because the truth is Inee,
I hadn't felt more alive.
And I haven't felt more alive..
Ever since you left.

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I am so out of titles.

This is going to short & quick.
I finally managed to get over my study block.
Through with ECS + Sociology.
Next Task: History.

Computer Practical Exam.
Tomorrow.
Heck yes.
Prepared? Not even close.
I have no idea what I am going to do.
But the fact that nobody else does either.. it's kind of comforting.
:)

I am already fretting about the lack of sleep.
I have to wake up at 5. AM tomorrow
& I am still not in bed.
D:

Oh right, ugly run-in with an ugly part of the past.
Too much of ugliness x.x
Ah well.
Bless the person who will someday (hopefully) invent selective sight.
You don't have to understand what I am on about.
Except that.. this is the end.

See you tomorrow?
Nighty night <3

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Like I Know Myself

If you ever wanted to know me like I know myself, read my list of Facebook Groups :o

1. World's Shortest Book: "My Achievements" by Barack Obama
2. KC fybmm'08
3. Fall Out Boy
4. Addicted to Heroes
5. Atheism, Logic, and Truth
6. Addicted to Gossip Girl
7. Heroes
8. Government + Religion = Disaster
9. The I Hate You God Damn Hippies Group; An Eric Cartman Fan Club
10. XOXO, Gossip Girl
11. Good Grammar Is Hot
12. KASHMIR-- AN Integral PART of INDIA!
13. The Global Conspiracy To Destroy Maths !
14. Atheist, Agnostic, and Non-Religious
15. I ♥ My Chemical Romance way too much.
16. Chetan Bhagat should go play in traffic :D
17. Abortion is a Woman's Choice.
18. I Hated The Borat Movie....[pause]...NOT
19. YUVANA - RN PODAR FEST 2008
20. PostSecret
21. I Have An Unhealthy Obsession With My Chemical Romance
22. We're Not Weird. We're Just Abnormally Strange.
23. Tomb Raider: Lara Croft
24. I ♥ Colaba Causeway! *
25. You know you're a North Indian when...
26. Petition For Pearl Jam To Play In India !!
27. Unagi isn't something you have, its something you are.
28. Atheism: A Non-Prophet Organization
29. I've read Harry Potter #7, now what am I supposed to do with my life?!?!
30. There's Too Much Blood in My Caffeine Stream!
31. One Million For Heath Ledger's Oscar Nomination For Best Actor as The Joker
32. Blood Donors - Mumbai
33. I Hate When Puddles Eat the Bottom of My Jeans
34. Heath Ledger should get a posthumous Oscar Nomination for the Joker!
35. If it's plural, IT DOESN'T NEED AN APOSTROPHE!!!
36. Dagny Taggart for President of the United States
37. KC FYBMM
38. I Continuously Check My Fridge For Food Expecting Some To Magically Appear
39. Accio Brain!
40. I hate my cell phone , it kills my privacy .. !!
41. I am Fluent in Sarcasm
42. The INDIA they rarely show you
43. It's not that I drop my cell phone, it just jumps out of my hands!
44. Against Gay Marriage and Abortion? Then Don't Get One and Shut the Fuck Up
45. P!ATD Music Lovers..!! ♥
46. Fuck this, I'm transferring to Hogwarts
47. RIOT! -- The Official Paramore Group.
48. Gerard Way For President
49. Things NOT to do.
50. Internet Explorer is ONLY useful for downloading Flock/Firefox !!
51. Admit it, The OC features great music
52. I ♥ Paramore
53. If You Can't Differentiate Between "Your" and "You're" You Deserve To Die
54. Kewda Inc.
55. No, I can't hang out with you on July 21st. HOW DARE YOU ASK?
56. I have Synaesthesia: I'm not a freak, I'm a Synesthete.
57. I Love Lhasa Apso
58. E=MCR
59. Kill Hannah Kollective
60. John Gault in 2008
61. Can We Forget About The Things I Said [And/Or Did] When I Was Drunk
62. R.I.P. Heath Ledger 1979 - 2008
63. Who is John Galt?
64. Everything in life can be related to a FRIENDS episode
65. *I Have a TATTOO and LOVE it*
66. Osho Chappal Love ♥
67. Nathaniel Archibald- Should Be Dating Me Instead Of Blair Waldorf
68. Petition for My Chemical Romance to come to India!!
69. The Shit You Hear About Me Is As Fake As The Bitch Who Told It To You ~
70. I want my very own Seth Cohen
71. Introverts United (Separately)
72. Language is the Writer's Sword: for Bibliophiles, Writers, and Philosophers
73. Legalize Same-Sex Marriage
74. Spider Pig =)
75. A is A
76. People who pop their collars are fucking failures, period.
77. I would get a new computer, but this one has all my MSN emoticons on it!
78. I Was Good At Math Until They Started Mixing The Letters With The Numbers
79. I FLIP MY PILLOW OVER TO GET TO THE COLD SIDE
80. I ♥ Bellatrix Lestrange!
81. Tattoo Love
82. Podar Batch of 2007 [C.B.S.E.]
83. My best friend and I have conversations that are impossible to understand
84. I Have - And Love Tattoos
85. Caffeine Just Helps Me Procrastinate Faster!
86. Pownce
87. Ayn Rand would love South Park
88. Flockstars
89. Bombay > Delhi
90. I ♥ Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants!!
91. YES I do act out the emoticons I use on msn.
92. A group dedicated to the greatest South Park quotes ever...
93. Toblerone!!!
94. Oh my God! They killed Kenny! You bastards!
95. It's Not My Fault What You Said Can Be Misconstrued as A Sexual Innuendo
96. I Don't Care How FUCKING COLD It Is. I Want Ice Cream, Bitch!
97. A Group For Those Who Do Stupid or Embarrassing Things Daily
98. I ♥ ME
99. Spidemo (Or, how our favorite web-slinger went emo in Spiderman 3)
100. Advocates of Objectivism: The Philosophy of Ayn Rand
101. "YOU'RE" is NOT the same as "YOUR", bitch.
102. Dear Alcohol, we need to have a talk ...
103. Top 10 Reasons I Procrastinate
104. Flyleaf
105. Church Of Eric Cartman
106. I like the new facebook so shut up and let me watch everything you do!!
107. The show and Movie Scooby-Doo is based on an acid trip.
108. I LOVE MENTHOLS!!!
109. Bet you didn't think I had a tattoo
110. When it rains I don't go to class
111. Fall Out Boy + Panic! at the Disco = LOVE
112. Absolut Vodka Appreciation Society
113. Addicted to Desperate Housewives
114. Grammar Freaks United
115. I sit in my room staring at blank word documents, yeah I’m a writer.
116. If I Can't Smoke and Swear, I'm F*cked!!
117. BMM @ KC
118. Desperate Housewives is what I look forward to on a Sunday Night ♥
119. I know someone that should be hit by a bus
120. I prefer Paint Shop Pro to Photoshop
121. Grammar, Punctuation, and Spelling Coalition
122. The 'American Dad is better than Family Guy' group
123. Atomic County
124. I'm a Loner by Choice
125. The United Anti-Chatspeak Coalition
126. Butters is by FAR the Best South Park Character
127. I would join your group, but you spelled the title wrong!
128. Don't Vote? Then Don't Bitch!
129. ERIC CARTMAN FOR PRESIDENT
130. South Park, is indeed, a BILLION times better than Family Guy
131. I like the new Facebook, stop your bitching!
132. Snap, Crackle, Pop... Bitch
133. I'm Tired Of People Fucking Up My Name
134. People opposed to the casting of Brangelina in Atlas Shrugged
135. Bullshit! Paper can't beat Rock!
136. Dear Parent, I Love You.. But If You Ask What I Did Last Night I WILL Lie.
137. Sometimes "Fuck" Just Seems Like The Most Appropriate Word...
     

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This thing's too long..

I have been feeling light-headed and giddy all day.
I think it's because I have had a bit too much of the weekend.
Too many people around.
It makes me feel weird when I am not the only person around the house for 90% of the day.
Eh, you probably don't get what I am talking about.
Nevermind.

I haven't managed to study squat since day before last.
Not really sure of the reason.
I want to study, but I am just not doing it.
x.x
It's so hard to make sense of myself sometimes.

Didn't watch a movie all day.
None. Zip. Zilch. Nada.
Unbelievable right?
Weekends are weird, told you so.

I watched 'A Wednesday' yesterday.
It was a fairly good movie.
I liked the plot, it was good.
I liked how they didn't need to show the 'good guy' being killed..
You know, to prove his patriotism.
I did however think the end was a tad too (for the lack of a better word..) stretchy..
I think the 'common man' over-explained himself in the end.
Nevertheless, it's worth a watch.

Bound was fantastic.
I liked it very much.
A "chick flick" in the true sense.
(You need to watch it to know what I am talking about. !)
At the core of it, it's a crime thriller.
A little more into the movie, it's a love story too.
&& with a dash of drama.
If you aren't for feminism, I'd suggest you stay away from this one.

Caesar: (talking about Corky) What did she do to you?
Violet (smiles): Everything you couldn't.

Hey! Don't tell me I didn't warn you ;)


Rock On !!
(Note: The exclamation marks are part of the movie title & bear no relation to my level of excitement in regard to the aforementioned movie.)
I like the concept.
I hate the story.
I like the songs.
I hate the plot.
It's not original.
It felt like deja vu.
It felt like Dil Chahta Hai.
(A lot lot lot.)
I would have probably enjoyed it more had I seen it before it was so hyped.
I ended up expecting way more than the movie was capable of delivering.
Kudos to Farhan Akhtar though.
He's one talented guy & I think he did well for his acting (& singing!) debut.
Arjun Rampal. One of the most under-rated actors.
No, I am not saying he's the best in the business.
It's just that, sometimes I feel he doesn't get the credit he deserves.
I liked him in this one. He's pretty good.

That's pretty much it, I guess.
Chinese is here :o
I have to go *ahem* hog ;P
Biiiii <3

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Blech

Since I blabber about movies everyday
(the ones I have watched & the ones I want to watch..)
l thought of dedicating a whole label to them.
(in effect, after this post).

So anyway,
It's been a dull couple of days.
Not that I am complaining.
I am enjoying this.
The not 'running helter skelter for projects'.
Refreshing change :) !

I can't wait for October 8th though.
No, not because exams start then xD
Buuuuuut, because.. (hold your breath)!
+drumroll+
SOUTH PARK 12.5 !!!!!
:D

I have missed Cartman sooo much. D:
Not long though.. just erm, 11 more days?
I hear Heroes Season 3 started last week too.
& I haven't had the time to catch up on Gossip Girl 2.
Wow, I need more time.
How about 30 hours a day?

Oh, I have watched.. like three movies in the last few days.
1. Superbad
2. Rock ON !!
3. Bound
----» I loved Bound *
{more on that later}

Hmm, that's all for now I suppose?
I have to go pretend to have a life.
Over and out ♥.

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Noah's Ark

My imagination doesn't cease to amuse me.
After shocking me with the most unimaginable piece of crap night before last..
I dreamt of something that's a weird concoction of hilarious, scary and just plain fucked up !
I was in Noah's Ark.
Along with three people.
And these people are in no relation to one another whatsoever.!
There was someone from my class.
There was this girl I knew in the 7th Grade!
& there was one of the guys I have dated.
o.o

I have some really fucked up dreams.
So, it had been raining for ages.
& all of us got into this 15th century style wooden ark.
& we were going somewhere (I am not sure where :S)

That's all I remember.
I am sure there was more to it.
I forget.

Every new dream later,
I am starting to believe even more..
That they have no gosh-darn relation to what the 'future holds'.
Cos mine are so messed up.
& if it's true.
I'd rather drown in the stupid flood.
Than be on a ark with those three people D:

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Project Finale + Smoking Ban!

Every mother fucking project is finally over!
Yes!
I am so relieved, you have no idea :)
Now I can relax
(& not panic for theory. It's nothing compared to all the project work!)

'Twas Historical Plays today.
Good fun.
Only managed to sit through four of them though.
We did this bit on Mirabai.
I chose not to play any 'character' because I was honestly too lazy for it.
I narrated instead.
Surprisingly, I didn't shudder or stammer of nervousness.
I wasn't nervous.
I am not sure if it was confidence..
..OR, if I didn't really give a damn xD
But all's well that ends well :)

So, I wanted to talk about the 'smoking in public areas' ban.
Seriously, wtf?
I know passive smoking sucks. I get that.
But there's a whole bunch of smokers who don't smoke in your face anyway.
There are smokers who won't smoke around people who are uncomfortable.
(Uncomfortable, not "OMG! Ew smokers!")
Then why put a 'ban' on letting someone enjoy a smoke & some chai on rainy day? (:

And I don't understand what they really mean by 'public places'.
Is it just 'closed' public places like clubs, restaurants, hospitals, etcetera?
Or does this mean you can't smoke on the road, in rickshaws and such either? D:

I am all for people not wanting to inhale my smoke.
But I don't get why everyone's so hell-bent on criminalizing smoking.
I know it's bad for health.
You think smokers don't already know that?
& if the government cares so much, why not make smoking illegal? Like drugs.
Oh wait! That'd leave a big hole in those effing tax books -.-
Someone needs to get their priorities right.
& I don't think it's those who smoke.

But of course, everyone says that it's one of those things that government won't implement.
I don't think that's the point.
The point is, if I am taking a walk & I want a smoke ..
Then I have the right to.
It's not anyone else's business.
I am not blowing it into your mouth, retard.

xxx
<3

P.S.I wonder if this is it.

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LoL

^ Stupid crazy videos I found randomly xD

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Pro choice or Pro life?

We had our last Sociology lecture yesterday. It's sad because it's been my favourite subject this semester. And like I have said a million times before Nandini Sardesi is amazing :)

So anyway, we were close to finishing the last chapter and we came to the topic of Social Movements. A movement called 'ProLife' came up. (a group of people who are against abortion). Their argument being that a foetus has 'human rights' of its own and therefore abortion is murder. Whether or not the father of the child can have his say when the mother is contemplating abortion, is another dicey situation.

What do you think? What's the way to go?
Let's say, you get pregnant (assuming you're a girl) at the age of 19. It wasn't planned, just a miscalculation or irresponsibility. Irrespective of the 'cause' you do {know} that you're not ready to have a kid. What do you do? Give up your life, career, plans and raise a child when you're barely out of your teens? OR. Do you abort?

Obviously a whole bunch of 'I-know-everything-about-the-world' kind of people are going to come up with allegations such as 'You're just taking the easy way out.' 'You're killing your own child.' 'It's your mistake, and now you should pay for it.' Tell me one thing.. Let's say you're at the beach and the tide is high. You've been warned to not get in there because it can be fatal. Guess what? You want to be a daredevil. You go in and jump around in the water anyway. The sand starts to slip beneath your feet and you find it hard to keep balance. You feel the body of water engulfing your own. What do you do now? Call for help? Try to get rescued? Or just 'pay for your mistake that you made by not listening in the first place'? So you should just let yourself die, right?

If you don't already get it, I am absolutely "pro-choice" & "pro-your-own-life-before-anyone-else's" because at the end of the day, it's the woman who has to carry the child for nine months, sit on her butt and go through labour. And it's only the beginning! She has to be a mother when she isn't ready to. It's not fair to the baby and it's most certainly not fair to her! So what the heck is wrong with the people for the 'anti-abortion' campaign?

I think, abortion, just like pre-marital sex, drugs, alcohol or even prostitution for that matter is a PERSONAL choice. No body of law or self-appointed moral police has a right to force an individual to make a decision that would alter the course of their life.

As for the bit about whether or not the father should have a say? I agree it's dicey. Nandini ma'am said that the father should not be given a choice (being the feminist that she is :P) .. but I am not too sure. Although there was her point about 'maternity can be proved, paternity cannot'. Till the baby isn't born, you can't prove who the father is & thus who determines if the father 'given' the right to voice his opinion is actually the father of the child? Tricky, eh? :P So I am leaning towards letting the woman have 100% freedom to choose for herself.

Don't agree with me? Tell me what you think, I'd love to hear it. If you DO however agree with me, there are some wonderful groups on Facebook that you should consider joining.

Abortion is a Woman's Choice.
Against Gay Marriage and Abortion? Then Don't Get One and Shut the Fuck Up

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Uhm

Uneventful day.
College was b-o-r-i-n-g.
But for some reason,
I love the cig breaks between classes.
It's what I miss the most on days that I don't go to college.
Classic Menthol + Mountain Dew = ♥
+chuckles+

So anyway,
I have a feeling I am switching my friends' circle.
No biggie.
I am not a 'friends for life' kinda person anyway.
I get bored, annoyed, bitchy, sick & pissed off with people quite easily.
Not that I am proud of it.
It's just a matter of fact.
But then again, I love my solitude.
I don't like giving it up, no matter who it's for.

American Psycho
What an absolutely crazy movie!
Maybe you should watch it, maybe you shouldn't xD
Depends on how much crazy you can handle :P

I want to watch this movie next.
Have I mentioned I LOVE him to bits?!

Not much more to talk about.
Time to go then :P
Bye < 3

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What the .. o_O

What was he doing in my dreams after all these months?
This is so weird.
I haven't really thought about him ever since we stopped talking.
I don't know what triggered the chain of thoughts.
And it was weird.
Because he wouldn't talk to me.
I am not entirely sure why.
& then I was best friends with a girl I hate irrevocably.
Ugh, was that a messed up dream or what?!
I should stop letting it stress me out :O
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
Phew! So anyway, I am on my way to college now.
I woke up late, because I woke up early and then couldn't sleep,
but I slept anyway..
So I woke up late.
Confused?
Believe me, not half as much as I am right now.
Bye <3

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Titacular

Oh yes.
New layout.
I know you love it :P
I love it too.
And it's RED!

Hmm, so there was no college today.
& I have finally managed to get myself to pick up that book.
.. and to start studying!
I studied a little bit of Sociology today :)
That's always a nice subject to start with :P

Other than that, I watch this really sweet movie.
Jerry Maguire.
I have been trying to get my hands on it forever!
& it wasn't easily available for some reason.
Anyway, I watched it & I think it was really nice :)
Total chick flick !

Ooh, yesterday I watched ~ A Walk To Remember.
& for those of you who actually liked the movie..
Wth is wrong with you? o.o
I think it was really lame and it was such a drag.
& it was so preachy with Jesus and the bible and what not -.-
I hate the type D:

Umm, now I have at least half dozen downloaded movies left to watch.
+gasp+
OK, not really.
It's not such a big deal, considering I am going to stay at home a lot.
And I'll be done watching them by Monday :D

Ooh, if you have any movie suggestions for me,
PLEASE do tell me :)
I have no favourite genre, so feel free to pick any movie that you think is good :)

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Untitled

Right. I must be really bored.
I am taking screenshots of my computer.
But it's my bestest friend :)
Ack, how pathetic does that sound? :P

Anyway, today was dull.
Nothing special.
Had an Economics lecture which I attended without reason.
I am not going tomorrow.
Maybe Saturday, just maybe.

Yesterday was mixed up.
The fashion show was a disaster.
I have no idea why.
We tried really hard to stick to the theme.
The rest flouted the theme
.. flirting with the thin line that distinguished ramp walking from dance/drama.
Who am I kidding?
It's no thin line.
Just blurred due to intellectual myopia.

Some issues were put to rest.
A heck lot of bitching was done.
I felt lighter.
OMG.
Bitching is the best form of venting, did I ever tell you that?
Of course not.
I don't need to :P
xD

I had Hukkah after /ages/ !
Like, the last time I had Hukkah I wasn't even 18 o.o
I was happy when I could show them my i-card ^.^
Ironically, it wasn't too good.
Just a lot of smoke without real fire.
I never noticed at before.
But then again, I never used to smoke cigarettes before either..

So today, I met this girl from Jai Hind (last year!)
And the first thing she said was, 'OMG! You've put on weight!'
She wasn't being rude or mean or anything.
Believe me, she's too dumb for that.
Just like, 'Wtf happened to you? o_o"
.. sorta thing.

You think I am going to start ranting about my diet again, right?
Not really. I am sick of it.
Sick of promising myself.
So, I am just going to take each day as it comes.
Maybe I'll lose weight, maybe I won't :)

I think that's about it for now?
It's only 10 PM and I am bored enough to be considering going to bed.
I woke up at 2.30 AM today x)
Came online and then went back to sleep in an hour.
Woke up at 6 AM again.
My sleep patterns get weirder by the day o_o'

Aah well, haven't got much to say.
Word out <3

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Customisation.. it's an art.

^ Flocketh! Shush. Don't tell anyone I am using P!nk :o


^ My Desktop :)


^ Messenger Skin Shot #1


^ Messenger Skin Shot #2

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Breathe (2 AM) ~ Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

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Project #second to last.

It's 6.35 AM.
I have been up for two hours now.
Doing what?
Well basically, nothing.
Just surfing P:
Had a shower and now I am having chai ♥.

Need to leave for Shradha's house in twenty five.
Fashion Show Rehearsal.
Eh, I am not as tired as I was last night xD
I love my sleep <3
I am not too cranky either.
But it shouldn't take too long..
Hmm, practice resistance Esha.

I hope we don't make a fool of ourselves xD
I will most likely ask someone to record us.
I want to have a look at how we did all of it.
That's all for now I suppose :x
Wish me luck :*

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Coopsplosion.

I will never, EVER forget this one scene from the OC.
It's by far my favourite one.
Too bad if you never watch the OC, you missed out on something amazing.
When I was watching it last year, and feeling the exact same way..I cried my eye sockets out.
P.S. If you never watched the show, you probably won't get it.

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I'll follow you into the dark..

The mother of all projects is finally over.
Sociology, sub-cultures in the Mumbai local trains.
^ That was our topic.
What we had to do?
Nothing much. Just you know, shoot a documentary.

Now it's completely OK if we don't have an effing clue about how it's done.
/sarcasm.

Meh, what really matters is the fact that it's over and done with.
We got 17 out of 25 marks.
I think it's decent, considering how we did everything at the last minute :P
I wasn't too nervous, for the first time today.
I am not sure why though xD

I will be uploading the documentary soon :]
I need to get my hands on the CD first xD

Hmm, we have a Fashion Show to present tomorrow ;__;
Another early morning x_x'
But at least we'll be only left with the 'historical play' after that.
I can't wait for the end D:
Anddd for the end of the exams.!
Anddd for the trip :D
A whole month to go though :P

OMG.
I love this song that I am listening to right now.
Btw, my layout is dedicated to it :)
It' the most beautiful song I have heard in a long time.
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie.
Trust me, it's amazing.

On the 'friends' front?
I have none.
I have made my peace with that.
I will never have the 'kind' of friends I want.
Or permanent friends.
That's just not for me.
Ah well, who needs them anyway? (:

I really feel like re-reading The Fountainhead.
I miss it. Very much.
And since eco-bitch refuses to return Altas Shrugged.
I am most probably buying it again x_x'
I can't believe how somebody could be so annoying for no apparent reason.
Whatever.

Umm, that's all for now I suppose.
Oh yeah, note to self ~
Don't depend on anyone but yourself + don't expect off anyone but yourself = eternal happiness.

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FUBCHES

OHAI ♥.
I haven't blogged for a while now ;__;
I had a fucked up day, thanks to some gay slut.
I am feeling really bleh :S
These two girls in class are being uber gay.
Idk what their problem is o.o'
Like, I am so close to punchingone of them in the face.
Life was better when I didn't have 'friends' and the problems that come with them x.x
And people who can't fucking frame even one grammatically correct sentence join media courses for WHAT?!
Just because you have some fucking quota?
Seriously, go fuck yourself bitch.
And read a grammar book while you're at it !
:@:@:@

Gee, I need to vent.. but I don't know where or how.
+hibernates+
;__;

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Rains + Ginger Chai + Chinese Food + New Faces = ♥

We had computer practicals at 7.30 AM. Yes, you read that right.. which means I had to leave the house at 6.00 AM if I wanted to get to class at all. Last time we reached at like 7.35 AM for the practicals and he didn't let us in :@ So I was sure as heck that I'd make it in time today.. But of course! Even after having 8 hours of sleep I woke up late D: I had to jog, sprint and run to try and make it on time and THANKFULLY .. I did :)

It was boring. He's teaching Corel Draw which I was initially excited about, but the syllabus is all shit. So I lost interest a few light years ago. That's beside the point, the point being that after class I had this {amazing} chai outside college. You're probably thinking, "Wtf, why is she blogging about chai of all the things o.o" But trust me! It was delish :)

Because we had like almost two hours before the next lecture and we were starving.. we went to the H.R. canteen for chinese :) And what's amazing is the fact that they have non-veg, which for some reason is absent from our college canteen o.O' I don't understand the logic, but whatever :P The food was great =) It's much {much} better than the food in our college but that's probably because these guys actually have a good variety ;)

Umm, so after the ECS lecture we went back to H.R. (ahaha! :P) and since Khushboo and Bhumika weren't around for the first round, they ate Chinese too xD And they forced me to eat it (again!).. but hey, since I have already thrown my diet plans out of the window.. who cares? :P

Andd, on a little personal note.. I want to add the fact that I don't feel out of place in KC at all. I am actually really loving BMM and the people (touchwood!).. I was so nervous about giving college a second shot but I am relieved now. Jai Hind was cruel xD Or maybe I just wasn't in the right frame of mind? I don't know. All's well that end well, I guess? :P

It's pouring right now, and I am enjoying another cup of tea with a dash of ginger and some munchies :3 So.. erm, bye!

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The day off *

It's been an uneventful day.
But at least I got some time to slow down, catch my breath.
I watched Eyes Wide Shut and I think it's safe to say, DO NOT watch it.
Unless you just want to watch it just for the explicit scenes o.o'
Anyway, I need to rush :o
!poof

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September = Fa!L

It's been a while, eh? I have just been really busy with all the project work and thankfully, not many more are pending. I was supposed to stay up all night and come up with some trash for Economics (it was due tomorrow) BUT, the lectures for tomorrow are cancelled thanks to some random seminar we're going to have =)

Thursday and Friday = no classes as well :D
Because we have this college festival going on and shit like that.
I don't really care as long as I get time to catch my breath :P

I submitted my Sociology Project today.
I spent all of yesterday on it.
It was really fun actually.
I didn't have to think too hard or make up things for this one.
Because I really 'got' the movie, all my thoughts and interpretations just flowed out.
:)

Today was exhausting x_x'
Especially because I had to run a bunch of errands before getting to college.
But at least I got some work done.
!Phew

I wonder when we're going to get the chance to actually start studying.
I am not entirely sure about two weeks being enough :P
But then again, maybe they will?
I haven't written an exam for almost a year now.
It's kind of scary to think of it that way D:
I mean, I couldn't have possibly forgotten how to write an exam..
Could I have? :O
I should stop scaring myself ;__;

I think I am going to crash now.
Shall have an early morning tomorrow :)
Bye! <3

P.S. Oh! I finally paid the money for the October trip. Wheeee! :)

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Mixed

I missed college today.
Don't ask me why or how >_>
It's the dumbest story ever.

But at least I got started on that Sociology project of mine.
I think I am going to enjoy writing that one.
It doesn't feel so much like 'work' when I do things individually.
It's actually kind of fun. Meh.

I watched two Drew Barrymore movies today :x
Never Been Kissed and Ever After.
They were well, all right. Not too bad.

Brandon Teena didn't leave me alone all night.
Or today.
It's a good thing I suppose.
It gives me more time to think about the movie.

I have just one class of History tomorrow.
Should I go or not?
I most probably won't.
But certain group projects need to get done.
Urh x_x'

It rained after ages today, which is relief considering how hot it has gotten lately.
I hope it rains again tomorrow.
And I wish I could just skip the month of October heat.
Fast-forward life to the winter.
I hope it gets as cold as it did last year :)

Ah well, time to find something else to do.
I don't have much to say anyway.
Toodles <3

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Fuck Fuckity Fuck.

Wow. It's been wow day o.o'
And not like, 'Wow, I had so much fun today!'
But, just 'Wow..'
I honestly can't think of any other word.

I just got done with watching this movie, Boys Don't Cry.
Believe me you, I am stumped.
I can't it out of my head.
I can't get Brandon Teena out of my head.

And efffff!
Why hadn't I watched this movie before?
Regardless, it's by far the best I have seen so far.
Since it's on the list of 25 most dangerous movies of all time.
I expected it to be 'something'.. this went beyond my expectations.

I thought, 'Fuck, it can't be better than Requiem for a Dream..'
Guess what?!
It's a million-billion times better.
It /actually/ stands for something.
It's a real life story.
It talks about everything I have ever believed in.
It's about the courage needed to be what you want to be.
Or as the tagline states: A true story about finding the courage to be yourself.

You know what?
Trash any other movies I have ever recommended.
And watch this. Just this.
And kill me if it doesn't make you feel the same way.

Hillary is fantastic!!
I had no idea.
She's such an amazing actress.
So convincing.
I love how the movie is not about who is right, who is wrong.
What's black, what's white.
It's about REAL people.
It's about REAL social problems.
It's REALITY in the crudest sense.

The movie doesn't sugar-coat anything.
It doesn't give you a candy floss world.
Just raw reality.

It's why I am choosing it for my Sociology project.
I couldn't have found a better movie to analyse.
I don't know what else to say.
Just one last thought..
~Go and watch this movie! Now!!

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Holy Fuck

Every project comes crashing down at us this week. Here's the gist :

September 04th: Submission of Computer Individual Project.
September 05th: Economics Group Presentation.
September 06th: Running around like fuck! for ECS Fashion Show.
September 07th: Thanks to nobody it's Sunday.
September 08th: Sociology Individual Project.
September 09th: Economics Group Project + ECS Fashion Show x_x'
September 09th-12th: Running around like fuck! for History + Sociology.
September 13th: History Group Project
September 15th: Sociology Group Project
September 16th: My funeral, you coming?

P.S. Gossip Girl Season 2 started day before. Wheeeee ^__^!

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Blast from the past ^

So Chikni decided to embarrass me with an old e-mail of mine that she found while clearing her inbox. And trust me, this shit is like over three years old. It's hilarious and embarrassing at times :x I wanted to put it up here and then re-write everything. See for yourself, the amount I have changed in these years :o

1) Single or taken: Single and not looking.
2) Your Age :16
3) Siblings : Yeah, younger brother
4) Hair colour & length : Honey coloured an inch or something below my shoulders
5) Shoe size : 7
6) Full name : Esha Rihal

Relationships:
1) Who are your best friends? : Aastha, Pavani, Manish, Ankita, Urvashi ... hmmm, the list is too long.
2) You have a boyfriend/girlfriend : Nah, spare me.
3) Did you send this to your crush : No, I don't have Shahid Kapur's id (as yet)
4) Did your crush send this to you? : I don't think he has mine either ... hehehehe.
5) Who is your crush? : SHAHID SHAHID SHAHID ...its like an anthem for me

Fashion:
1) Any tattoos or piercing and if so how many? : yeah three piercing :)

The Extra Stuff:
1) Do you do drugs : Like I am gonna write it down here ... seriously, NO
2) What kind of shampoo do you use : Fructis
3) What are you listening to right now : Jayz and LP - Collision Course
4) What type of car do u want : BMW
5) Who is the last person that called you : Aastha
6) Where do you want to get married? : Paris ... if I can afford to
7) How many messenger buddies do you have online right now? : 2

Favourites:
1) Colour : Grey
2) Boy's names : Josh, Ashton
3) Girls names : Renee, Paris
4) Subjects in school : Economics, Entrepreneurship, Accounts, English and Business Studies
5) Animal : Dogs , just adore them.
6) Music : Rock

Have You Ever:
1) Given anyone a bath : No ... looking forward to ... haha
2) Smoked : Nah
3) Ever bungee jumped : No
4) Made yourself throw-up : once
5) Gone skinny-dipping : No
6) Ever been in love: Yes I have and regretted it badly afterwards
7) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble : I do that all the time

Final Questions:
1) Pizza or chocolate : Pizza
2) How many people are you sending this to? : Everyone on my list
3) Who will send it back? : I hope everyone does
4) Gold or Silver : Silver
5) What is the last film you saw at the cinema? : Salaam Namaste
6) Who do you love? : My family and friends.



1) Single or taken: Single and still not looking.
2) Your Age :19
3) Siblings : Yep, kid brother :)
4) Hair colour and length : Dark brown, poker straight and kinda long.
5) Shoe size : 7
6) Full name : Esha Rihal

Relationships:
1) Who are your best friends? : None.
2) You have a boyfriend/girlfriend : Nope :)
3) Did you send this to your crush : No, I have better things to do.
4) Did your crush send this to you? : Shut up already :@
5) Who is your crush? : As of now? Alexis Bledel.

Fashion:
1) Any tattoos or piercing and if so how many? : Six tattoos and pierced ears.

The Extra Stuff:
1) Do you do drugs : Depends on what you classify as 'drugs'.
2) What kind of shampoo do you use : I use Dove :x
3) What are you listening to right now : Katy Perry
4) What type of car do you want : A porche :)
5) Who is the last person that called you : My mum?
6) Where do you want to get married? : Rome!
7) How many messenger buddies do you have online right now? : 6

Favourites:
1) Colour : Red
2) Boy's names : Ekalavya
3) Girl's names : Scarlet, Ayn
4) Subjects In School : Sociology + Computers :)
5) Animal : Canines :)
6) Music : Any that makes my foot tap.

Have You Ever:
1) Given anyone a bath : Yes. My dogs :P
2) Smoked : Yes?
3) Ever bungee jumped : No
4) Made yourself throw-up : Not that I remember o_o'
5) Gone skinny-dipping : I wish I could! But I don't know how to swim D:
6) Ever been in love: Well, I have been in what I thought was love :P
7) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble : Not recently, no.

Final Questions:
1) Pizza or chocolate : Neither.
2) How many people are you sending this to? : N/a
3) Who will send it back? : N/a
4) Gold or Silver : Silver
5) What is the last film you saw at the cinema? : The Dark Knight.
6) Who do you love? : That crazy bitch in the mirror.

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Vent-machine :@

What an annoying day.
What annoying people that call themselves my friends.
What amazing three movies that helped me escape the problems in RL.
.. Even if it was just for a few hours.

What's wrong with being a loner?
What's the point of needing someone?
Heck, no one understands how much it sucks to depend on someone.
To not be able to 'be' without another person.

No, I don't need someone to 'complete' me.
But, is that such a bad thing?
The fact that I am alone and not lonely?
I doubt it.

Misery loves company.
But guess what?
I am not miserable.
So don't make me out to be.
And most certainly don't make me question myself.

I'd much rather, embrace this solitude of mine.
Than end up in a big mess like I did last year.
When I knew it's not what I wanted.
But I got into it anyway.
Never happening again.

I am not going to be monophobic.
Just because you are.

Don't make me change my mind.
Don't try and push me over the edge.
Don't make me snap.
And I'll be just fine.
I promise.
Do you?

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Effed up :/

She doesn't know what's happening. Does she really like him? Or does she /need/ to like him? Why does everyone make it look like she needs someone to survive? To get through life? She most certainly didn't think she did; but now, she is asked to question herself every time the girls chatter about their 'love lives' .. And then there's this void growing within her, every moment that she spends listening to their sappy stories..

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Movie Blabber

I think I just got done with watching the most amazing movie of all times! To be honest, I didn't expect much but by the end of the movie I was like 'OMG! It's ending! D:' It's called The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants and apparently it's based on a three series novel (which I really want to read now!).

It's this story about four best friends and how they struggle with their individual problems. It's about how they stick together and are there for each other no matter what and how at the end of the day, they're still always gonna be together.. come what may. It kind of made me wish I had friends like that, you know? But since I have already given up on /that/ let's not broach that subject, k?

So, the cast was fantastic. I couldn't help but notice that all four of them are prime time TV show stars :) It was a refreshing change from those regular hollywood faces. This one, it's a MUST watch. I think it's got something for every girl out there =) Ooh, yes. It's a 100% chick flick btw :P .. so, I am not sure if you'd a guy would enjoy it. Mhmm.

That's all for now! +yawn+
Mum and Dad get back tomorrow. Last few days have been a hell lot of fun :)

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Untitled

It's been a nice day so far :)
Actually, the day has set and it's midnight now.
I don't know what I am talking about, yes.

I just got done with watching Daredevil - Director's Cut.
I must say, it's tons better than the one that came out in the theatres.
What I /really/ love is the background score.
It's fantastic. You should look it up sometime :)

Day#2 of staying alone goes down.
I have college at 12.50 tomorrow. I am not sure if I want to go.
But then again, I haven't much to do sitting at home either.
Hmph, let's see what I feel like in the morning.

I hate how Neopets is so gosh darn boring now :/
I could've played for hours earlier, but now I am stuck refreshing the same page..
Blargh.
My online life is sorta dying D:
But maybe that's a good thing? I don't know :P

So, I was sleepy a few minutes back.
But, I am not any more for reasons unknown to me.
And this is just about it.
I have no more random rubbish to blog about.
Toodles <3

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